I was excited to see you. On my way home, I thought about you. You were so sad when I left you this morning. And I was so sad I had to leave.
The first thing I checked when I got in was the spot where I left you. I felt relief when I saw a glimpse of the light coming from your lampshade. I looked inside your blanket, but you weren’t there. All that was left was your food, water and vitamins – looks exactly the same as I left you this morning.
Next I checked was my bed. I remember I was so worried last night, before we went to sleep. I couldn’t sleep because I was worried about you – if you’re cold or not. Everything is there, the way I remember everything, except you.
Chikiblue. Why did you have to leave me? 😦
*It is the last day of our first of the who-knows-how-long training. It was so sad because from 21, only 18 are moving on. From Product training, 1 was not able to pass, and 1 was terminated because of background check results. Not to mention, we had to leave our trainer behind, crying. It was the most depressing sight.
*Two of my households are going to enter the convent this June. Time is running out. Tick-tock-tick-tock.
*I know I will be part of a new household until February, and I will be part of a new parish. Goodbye, old people. Hello, new ones. More changes. Great.
*Today is the last day for World Single’s Congress registration, and I wasn’t able to register. Payday is on 30. So I can say goodbye to that, too. Apparently, deadline for payments was extended.
*I wasn’t able to meet my favorite ex’s mother. We were supposed to have a date earlier today.
*Shift is from 2pm-10pm. I get home by 12:30am. I was not able to attend the first 2 dawn mass because I was so sleepy, and had to study for the exams. Goodbye, 9 mornings. Goodbye, Christmas wish.
*My used-to-be bestfriend’s dad died almost three weeks ago. My ex-youth’s dad died two weeks ago. Another ex-youth’s dad died two weeks ago – and her mom died last May. Wow just keeps getting better and better.
I hope there are no more goodbyes after this. I hope we stay together until we survive everything. I hope these are the last goodbyes I ever have to go through before the year ends.
This is just so depressing. It was told in my horoscope that it’s going to be a lucky year for me. Now I know better than to believe in stupid horoscopes. This is like the most depressing year.
4. Ate Ann and Ate Raine
5. Pasayan family
7. pet Chikiblue
8. household / unit / household
9. Ann, Mel, Al, Fjel, Windy, Leah
9 goodbyes. Top that.